So, I've been in an obscenely good mood these past few days. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY (actually I do). But I'm not going to question it. I think it may be just a general satisfaction with my life at this point in time. I guess maybe because I'm a very nostalgic person, looking through blog posts from about a year ago, just to see how I've grown as a person and to see how my photo skillz have improved. Then I just noticed how I seemed real thrilled in a lot of those posts from like last Spring but I really wasn't at all. I was so confused with what I wanted to do with my life, when I had a real design job in the city which seemed so awesome on the outside but I really, really hated it. Like, miserably. Along with half of my living space being completely renovated, I just felt like my whole world was turned upside down. I know these seem like pretty petty problems, but I really did just feel like utter shit. I didn't want to post about how much I hated my job on here when it was still so recent because anyone can see it, but now I don't care, whatever. Which was so hard, even though it was part time, it made me sad. I needed to vent. But I saved it for my perzine anyways and I still was able to get my feelz about it out. It's also easier for me to talk about negative feelings retrospectively, cause if I talk about why I'm sad when I'm sad, that can sometimes be damaging for me. I think the main thing that made me sad was because I was just questioning to myself, if I hate a real Graphic Design job, something I thought I wanted and was so excited about, then WHAT AM I DOING. Just such a let down! But now, I know exactly what I want, I have a concrete plan set for my near future with getting a house with the love of my life and everything is just dandy and I feel so thankful and happy and contented. My what i call my "career identity crisis" has ended and I know that I just want to continue my job as a quirky indie feminist artist and accessory designer, because it makes me so happy. I even talked with an accountant recently about real world big girl stuff with my business! I never thought I would be saying that. So I dunno, I'm just feeling gooood. And that is, well, good.
In other news, yesterday I bought a Bump-It. I'm finally going to have perfect 60's bubble hair, just in time for Valentines Day.